Christians, do I deserve to go to heaven?

I know that Jesus will forgive us for accepting his shed blood and repenting of our sins and this is exactly what I have done however I still have some lingering doubts in my mind as to whether I will go to heaven. I am sure that there are others out there who question their worthiness as well after the kinds of sins they have committed. I have never killed or raped anyone. I dont even steal. You see I grew up on a farm and I was a social outcast in highschool. Women would not give me the time of day so I resorted to having anal sex with farm animals since they could never say no. I pray that Jesus will forgive me but I feel so wrong for doing this and I cannot shake the guilt. I am sorry but I did not choose to have a fetish for my livestock okay? Will anyone reading this message be my friend and tell me that everything will be okay because I feel lost?